ALLIGATORS HOLDING TRAYS AND ALL THIS DEAD STUFF

I won some sunglasses yesterday. They were lying on a table in a pub, unclaimed. I took them. They are my prize.

A pair of slightly used rayban wayfarers. Tortoise-shell.

RE. THE EXACT PAIR I WANTED LAST YEAR and now i have them without spending £120.

RE. AWESOME.

OK. Call me a thief. It turns me on. I'm finally beginning to write again, as from now. I have yet to exercise.

And I keep going crazy. Phases of crazy. I ate a huge ice cream yesterday topped with mr. whippy. white chocolate/honeycomb/raspberry pavlova. I needed it. Just prior to huge ice-cream engulfment I decided to make a point by ripping up a ten pound note.

I did it and I felt nothing.

I didn't want to do it again, but I didn't not want to do it again.

And I scowled at my boyfriend, and I hated the world.

And I hated everyone, and I kept stopping and I wanted to run back to the station and get a train to wherever my 70...no, 60, now, pounds would take me.

fuck, edinburgh.

it always seems so far away.

no, middlesborough. or somewhere in rutland. no-one knows where rutland is. It's like wonderland.

next time I won't fight it. and I will go to wonderland.

I looked on Googlemaps and Oakham is in wonderland, and Oakham has a station. It probably has a place where I can set up shop as a well to do woman wondering the countryside because mr. rochester locked his wife in his attic.

or, I'm not Jane Eyre and there won't be a religious man available to give me shelter and fall in love with me.

Jane Eyre must have been crazy because, you know, she had breasts.

I'd just be a traveller. A mysterious traveller with dull eyes.

YES a single to Oakham from Bristol is £36.95 if I leave right now. So my dreams...my dreams...

I don't know if I'm getting side-tracked or not.

There's this competition I think I'm going to enter to win a trip to North Korea which is intensely exciting. Watch these videos. Thanks.

It's a three part documentary that's not at all objective but is really interesting and a little bit funny. WATCH THESE VIDEOS. THANKS.